Friday, December 12, 2008

I don't know, I was just wondering, is it possible to think without words? Is it possible to form wordless thoughts? Without words, would we be the same as animals with our thoughts constrained to mere survival instincts?

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Why is there war??

Now now, why is there war? Wow! Such a tough question, or is it really that tough? I've no idea thought, I haven't a belligerent nature or is it just lying dormant underneath or my layers of tranquility?

Basically, I see wars happening everyday, or rather, fights, or rather quarrels then. When people don't see eye to eye, they quarrel and when tensions escalate, they fight. And when the fighting parties posess great powers or happen to be international leaders, then they war.

And so, the root of all these war problems is the not seeing eye to eye part. Can we work out a solution to this problem? Don't mind me, I like to do a lot of self-talk and self-questioning, in fact, if ever I were being stranded on an island like robinson crusoe, I doubt I'll ever be lonely because I sure can entertain myself.

Ok people, bear with me, not bare for me, I'm about to start preaching again. People don't see eye to eye because of several reasons. One, because we are selfish. Two, because of our inability to put ourselves in the shoes of others. Hmm... Is there any other reasons? I can't think of one right now but 2 doesn't sound very wholesome to me, I'd very much prefer 3.

However, the selfish reason I think we can actually eliminate. Because if we were really to wear the shoes of others, I doubt our conscience would allow us to remain selfish. If one was selfish in the first place, one wouldn't have even bother trying to wear the shoes of others. So to me, they are mutually exclusive matters. Am I being a bit extremist here?

And so, the cure for war lies therefore in education. But then the big problem is this, in the world right now, it's the money doing all the talking, economy is king, most of us if not all are its slaves. And because King Economy says now now, I don't need artists, or musicians or any artsy-futsy people, they don't help me earn much, what I need are real workers - the engineers, the lawyers, the doctors etc. And because King is only concern about money-making, he forgot to instill in his slaves the generousity of spirit to wear the shoes of others, and that is also the king's downfall. Because without this generousity in spirit, the slaves will wage wars against one another and who then would have the time to serve the king?

Why do we have to go to school?

Now we're back to the age old question aren't we, why do we have to go to school? Isn't this what we always say when mummy trys to jerk you out of bed, you know? The time when we boys haven't reach puberty yet and we've not been labelled to be jerks yet because we are till cute adorable boys.

Anyway, enough of drifting about, let's get to the main theme, why do we have to go to school? Now seriously, I really have no idea why we have to go to school. I mean if it's for education, why, some mommies and daddies are educated enough to educate their children, or we could even employ tutors for that. And then you say, so school is for the poor then, but why do rich kids still send their children to school? For networking and politics???

Well, maybe it's not that hard a question at all, yea I can hear you people, you're saying how stupid and dumb I am. It's for the people right?! We go to school for the people, for the friends. Where else can you find a place housing so many people of around the same age as you? In most places, children or teenagers that is are the minority, and yes, it's still practised nowadays, children are still to be seen and not to be heard. And that explains why so many kids are into rock and metallic nowadays, because apparently they feel they are not being heard which is really justifiable. But mixing noise with what they are jibbering about really makes it harder for us to hear what they really really want to say. Don't get me wrong, we hear them, but their message just isn't clear.

And yes, I've drifted again. Anyway, yea, we go to school for the people. There is this quote I've heard before somewhere, "Every friend you meet brings out a whole new world in you." Obviously it should sound so much better than this but I can't remember the exact phrasing. And in school, you can find so many friends and thus you find so many new worlds that you never thought possible existed in you. In fact, it could even be larger than the actual universe in this universe? Now which is bigger, universe or world? Darn, it's confusing me. Have you ever been surprised by yourself, what you did and say under certain situations? Well, that's the you that remains undiscovered in you, the unexplored region. And so, we go to school to explore the unexplored in ourselves, not only through our friends, but through the different languages as well, english, chinese, french, all spoken languages as well as the maths, the sciences, music and art. They are what connect us to people of the past and each connection would bring out a whole new world in you. (I think it's clearer to me now, universe should be bigger though what does it realy matter anyway right?)

And isn't the journey of life just a journey of self-discovery?

Monday, December 8, 2008


I have never seen nothingness
I have never wore nothingess
I have never felt nothingness
But I would like to


Always fights courageously without fear
In the battlegrounds
In times of war
Just for the name of fame


Melancholy is pale blue
It sounds like the breeze
It feels like the sea
It tastes like blandness


I'm depressed
Not elated, not perverted, not estatic
I'm just tired of feeling
Tired of feeling happy
Tired of feeling hurt
Tired of feeling feelings


When I fall in love
When all I see is love
When all I hear is love
When all I read about is love
When all my feelings are consumed by love
I stand up and surrender, with my white underwear, to love


I saw rage clearly
He was huge and bulky
He turned and roared thunderously
I saw his decaying teeth
I heard him purr
And I felt quizzy all over

I am

I am boring and mundane
I wonder about emptiness and loneliness
I hear hollowness and silence
I see a vast nothing
I want flaming intensity
I am boring and mundane
I pretend as pretense should be
I feel bitter-sweet
I touch depressions
I worry about worrying
I cry tears of pleasure
I am boring and mundane
I understand I understood nothing
I say what the hell just live with it
I dream of heavenly hell
I try to make my dreams come true
I hope of a better world, and a better me
I am boring and mundane


The necessity to express one's emotions and feelings is of the utmost importance. Languages, music, art even sports such as soccer are an outlet of expression of thyself. Language is a technical expression of logic relying on the tone of voice and body motions to express the emotions. Music and art are more the languages of the soul and heart for it has no words to imprison them. They have no definite shape and thus would take the different shapes in different hearts but the essense of it remains.
For in much wisdom is much grief:
and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow.

Friday, September 5, 2008

My quote?

I can't remember if i got this from somewhere, but if I didn't, then this quote must be mine, haha.

"When one is too busy judging, there will be no time left for understanding." ~ Hopefully is me

His story or her story?

In 1923, one vote gave Hitler leadership in the Nazi party.

Unbelievable, I got this from chicken soup, one vote!? one vote and could it have changed the whole world?

Which reminds me of a joke,

why did you have 2 history classes in a day?
Ans: Because history repeats itself.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008


A new neighbor asked the little girl next door if she had any brothers and sisters. She replied, "No, I'm the lonely child."

One day a guy was driving with his four-year-old daughter and beeped his car horn by mistake.
She turned and looked at him for an explanation.
He said, "I did that by accident."
She replied, "I know that, Daddy."
He replied, "How'd you know?"
The girl said, "Because you didn't say 'JERK' afterwards!"

think think think

I think most of us know not what we really want, I mean really really want. All we think is, oh, i just want more money, but what the hell do we do with that much money? For material comforts of course, but our greed and lust will be insatiable, the more we have, the more we want. To be truly rich, is to not want anything. Oh no, I'm falling into preaching mode.

Watching movies these days, I kinda realise that we are getting more cynical as humans. There isn't any of those preachy idealistic drama stuff going on, I mean, who are we kidding man, our basic assumption is the same as Adam Smith, everyone is selfish and will take care of their own needs first.

Anyway, yea, I think we should always reflect on what we really want, and once again, haha, I'm so long winded, I mean really really reflect, really really think man.

If you make people think that they think they will love you; but if you make them really think they will hate you

Roscoe B. Ellard

Why isit easy to weigh fish?

Bcos they haf their own scales

Sunday, August 31, 2008

'When faced with a moral dilemma, always ask yourself what you would do if your little one is watching'


Adoption by homos?

I am totally for the motion that whether one is homo or hetereo or bi or tri or quad sexual.... one should be given the same rights as everyone else, to be able to adopt kids. I see no difference between a male and female, a malay and chinese, so why should it be any difference for sexuality? it's just that there are four kinds of eole instead of 2, which we've always gotten wrong, or erhas these 2 kinds kind of evolved into existence recently. Anyway, I believe it's nature, I mean considering how tough a ath is for the homosexuals, if given a choice, who would want to choose the harder ath? Therefore, what's important is not the sexual inclination of the parents to be but how well prepared are they to be parents.

I believe in the upbringing of kids, we've gotta be truthful and models to them, hence, if we were to deny the rights for the homos to adopt, then we're implying that there's something wrong with them, which there isn't! And we obviously can't be hypocrites, saying that there's nothing wrong with being homo but then not treating them as equals, what kind of parents are we then?

Maybe some people fear that the adopted child would be induced to the homo side of sexuality but i don't think the homo arents would do this to their adoted child. they already know how hard the life of a homo is, why would they want their child to suffer?

Maybe some fear that the adopted would be laughed at by their eers. Well, I'm always for the saying that what can't kill you will only make you stronger. And it's kind of good too, in the sense that the adopted would grow up faster and learn about the existence of prejudices in this world and thus grow up to be a more sensitive soul.

juz quotes

To have another language is to possess a second soul.

Hmm... a very interesting quote. Another language, another culture, another understanding, another perspective. But why learn another when one hasn't even mastered one? But when will we ever completely master a language? Least I know my english isn't good enough for me to try another language. My vocab sux, see, I couldn't even come up with a better word other than sux.

By swallowing evil words unsaid, no one has ever harmed his stomach.
Winston Churchill

Churchill is cetarinly one witty old fella.

From now on, ending a sentence with a preposition is something up with which I will not put.
Winston Churchill

Even if you do learn to speak correct English, whom are you going to speak it to?
Clarence Darrow

I like this, command of language is like another weapon or armory for the so called 'minds' to distinguish themselves from the mediocore, brawls, brutes, peasants etc. which brings me to a quote of my 0wn, yeah,

"Never forget the first principle of communication, to get your message across." ~~ me

Hmm... Doesn't sound or feel very good, needs improving, but I'll just leave it like this for now.

Tuesday, August 26, 2008


There's nothing I hate more than nothing

Nothing keeps me up at night

I toss and turn over nothing

Nothing could cause a great big fight

Edie Brickell


Hmmm... funnily enough, this reminds me of the nothing in the never never ever ending story, which was a favorite of mine when I was a kid. Some of my friends would point out that there is a grammatical error in the previous sentence saying that it should be in present tense instead of the past.

Could love be too much at times, to the extent of smothering one's partner till he/she could hardly breathe?

I believe so. But that my friend, I would define as immature love, that it isn't love for one's other half but rather too much love for oneself. Loving too much is merely a misconception. It's not love, it's need. Is it confusing? I find it hard to put in words and right now, I'm so lazy to word all these because it's in the noon and who can think right in the day.

Friday, August 22, 2008


You know that stuff about original sin in christanity? That Adam and Eve know no shame till they were tempted by the crafty serpent and ate the fruit of good and evil. I’ve always wondered and pondered about that. You see, children have no sense of shame at all, and I mean it in the good way. When they were born, they were not ashamed to be naked. It was after we taught them that it is not ‘right’, whatever that means to be ‘right’, (perhaps the meaning of right is majority, because 85% of the population in the world are right handers), that the children then learn to be ashamed of this own nakedness.

Now, you see, in christanity, we were born sinners, or we are? (My grammar SUX!) If sin was passed on, we ought to be born ashamed of our own nakedness as well since the sin is the possession of the ‘wisdom’ or ‘knowledge’. But the fact is, we aren’t.

Which reminds me of another thought often swimming and floundering in my head, that we always modify things to suit our theory. For instance, in animal farm, the pigs keep changing the rules for their own benefit. In science, as students, we all like to give excuses to fit our theories, because if our theory or hypothesis is wrong, then we'd be back at square one. Which is what Richard Feynmann excactly warned us against, the world is as it should be, no anyone is to say it should work this way or that. In religion, for instance christanity, you see so many different branches or versions with different rules. Maybe I'm the one that is modifying things to suit my own theory, but whatever, we people are always biased no matter how we claim not to be. (modifying things? sounds so weird, damn, I can;t express myself right)

Thursday, August 14, 2008

What love means to kids

Got this from a blog.

A group of professional people posed this question to a group of 4 to 8 year-olds, “What does love mean?”

“Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.” Chrissy -age 6

“Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that. They look gross when they kiss” Emily - age 8

“I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.” Lauren - age 4

You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.” Jessica - age 8

nd the final one — Author and lecturer Leo Buscaglia once talked about a contest he was asked to judge. The purpose of the contest was to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbour was an elderly gentleman who had recently lost his wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the little boy went into the old gentleman’s yard, climbed onto his lap, and just sat there. When his Mother asked what he had said to the neighbour, the little boy said, “Nothing, I just helped him cry.”
I think in Korea there is one such parable.

There is this creature, with plenty of hair at the front, and none at the back. The hair at the front is so thick and dense that one can't really see how it looks like. So one will strain and try to catch a glimpse of the creature's looks because we are fear what we do not know. By the time we've got a clear look of this creature, it has already passed us and when we want to catch it, we wouldn't be able to do so because it has no hair at its back.

The name of this creature is opportunity.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008


Happiness is the absence of the striving for happiness.

Rewards and punishment is the lowest form of education.


Some of us (perfectionists, especially) fuss so much over making the 'right' choice, but in life, all that's really needed is to make any' good' choice, believe in it, go through with it, and accept the consequences.

The thing that is really hard, and really amazing, is giving up on being perfect and beginning the work of becoming yourself.
tealblueIs Anna Quindlen quotes

This is the very perfection of a man, to find out his own imperfections.
Saint Augustine

They say that nobody is perfect. Then they tell you practice makes perfect. I wish they'd make up their minds. Winston Churchill

A beautiful thing is never perfect.

The artist who aims at perfection in everything achieves it in nothing. Eugene Delacroix

People throw away what they could have by insisting on perfection, which they cannot have, and looking for it where they will never find it Edith Schaeffer
I thought the olympic incident regarding the pretty little angel miming the voice of an angel absolutely disgraceful. Of course, I'm not referring to the kids but the organizers behind it. What are we teaching our children here?! Are we saying that to achieve perfection, one has to resort to lies and deceit? Are we saying that looks and beauty are that important? Are we saying in life, we expect everything to be perfect and if you are not born with the perfect looks or voice, something is wrong with you? Are we saying that we will tolerate no imperfection and that our imperfection are actually flaws and not what makes us human? Just what kind of values are we inculcating in our children?

I believe we all know that the little eyes are constantly on us, that what we do is a million times more important than what we preach to them. How are we supposed to face them and answer them if they were to question us on this incident? Do we say, oh, it's because the angel with a voice is not pretty enough to be able to stand on stage singing and so we chose a pretty little girl to act as if she was the one singing?

Olympics isn't about perfection! It's about us striving to reach a stage of perfection, it's about overcoming our imperfections be it physical or pyschological. In the latter, we have failed. We have failed to embrace imperfection, we choose rather to foster an image of false perfection. This is no different from an athelete taking contraband substances to execute the perfect performance.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

To kill a mockingbird

“Remember it’s a sin to kill a mockingbird.” That was the only time I ever heard Atticus say it was a sin to do something, and I asked Miss Maudie about it.
“Your father’s right,” she said. “Mockingbirds don’t do one thing but make music for us to enjoy . . . but sing their hearts out for us. That’s why it’s a sin to kill a mockingbird.”

You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view . . . until you climb into his skin and walk around in it.

They're certainly entitled to think that, and they're entitled to full respect for their opinions... but before I can live with other folks I've got to live with myself. The one thing that doesn't abide by majority rule is a person's conscience. ~Harper Lee,
To Kill a Mockingbird, Chapter 11, spoken by the character Atticus

So it took an eight-year-old child to bring 'em to their senses.... That proves something - that a gang of wild animals can be stopped, simply because they're still human. Hmp, maybe we need a police force of children. ~Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird, Chapter 16, spoken by the character Atticus

"I think I'll be a clown when I get grown," said Dill. "Yes, sir, a clown.... There ain't one thing in this world I can do about folks except laugh, so I'm gonna join the circus and laugh my head off." "You got it backwards, Dill," said Jem. "Clowns are sad, it's folks that laugh at them." "Well, I'm gonna be a new kind of clown. I'm gonna stand in the middle of the ring and laugh at the folks." ~Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird, Chapter 22, I think Dill is playing the part of Truman Capote here

The one place where a man ought to get a square deal is in a courtroom, be he any color of the rainbow, but people have a way of carrying their resentments right into a jury box. As you grow older, you'll see white men cheat black men every day of your life, but let me tell you something and don't you forget it - whenever a white man does that to a black man, no matter who he is, how rich he is, or how fine a family he comes from, that white man is trash. ~Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird, Chapter 23, spoken by the character Atticus

I think there's just one kind of folks. Folks. ~Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird, Chapter 23, spoken by the character Scout

The sixth grade seemed to please him from the beginning: he went through a brief Egyptian Period that baffled me - he tried to walk flat a great deal, sticking one arm in front of him and one in back of him, putting one foot behind the other. He declared Egyptians walked that way; I said if they did I didn't see how they got anything done, but Jem said they accomplished more than the Americans ever did, they invented toilet paper and perpetual embalming, and asked where would we be today if they hadn't? Atticus told me to delete the adjectives and I'd have the facts. ~Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird, Chapter 7

When a child asks you something, answer him, for goodness' sake. But don't make a production of it. Children are children, but they can spot an evasion quicker than adults, and evasion simply muddles 'em. ~Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird, Chapter 9, spoken by the character Atticus

Bad language is a stage all children go through, and it dies with time when they learn they're not attracting attention with it. ~Harper Lee, To Kill a Mockingbird, Chapter 9, spoken by the character Atticus

It's a great book, and what makes it so endearing is that the narrator is just a little girl and we get to see the characters and events through her point of view. I think the author chose the little girl as her narrator simply because children are the most 'unbiased' I guessed, why she chose a girl and not a boy might be because the author's a lady and could write more realistically, least that's what I think.

It's a great book for parents as well as Atticus is a really great father and man. He knows that actions speak louder than words and hence he tries to be a role model for his children. He treats his children with respect and trusts them as well, which reminds me of another book, toto-chan, the girl by the window which is also a great book.

There was this man who was very troubled,
not that he wasn't good at his job,
in fact he was excellent at what he does,
but it's the time he was not at work that's troubling him.

He went to see this pyschologist,
and told him all his problems.
Thy pyschologist upon hearing his problems,
gave him a suggestion,
"Why not you go and attend this famous comedian's performance,
it's sure to make anyone laugh his head off!"

The man kept quiet for a long long time,
then he lifted his head up with tears in his eyes,
"I'm the famous comedian," he said... ...

Saturday, August 9, 2008

2 brothers lived on an 80 storey high building. One morning, both of them set off to work with especially heavy bags. Unfortunately for them, both of them missed out on the notice that says that the lifts would not be in operation after 9pm.

When they returned home from work at 10pm and realized the lifts weren't working, they decided to climb up all the way home with their heavy bags.

Upon reaching the 20th storey, they were so out of breath that they decided to leave their bags behind and collect them the next day. So they continued climbing and when they reached the 40th level, they were so angry with each other for not reading the notice that they almost came to blows. When they reached the 60th storey, they were too tired and out of breadth to argue with each other and so in silence they made their final journey up to the 80th storey. Then did they realized that they've left the keys along with their bags on the 20th storey!

It sort of resembles life. When we are young and idealistic, we carry our dreams (bags) happily till we reached around 20 years of age. It's then that the burdens and reality of society hits us. Having to take care of our parents, having to clear the debts of our school fees, having to do this and that aka all the responsibilities. We become tired and so we say to ourselves let's lay off our dreams and goals first, when we have finished with these responsibilites, we'll then come and picked up where we left off, like in the story where they left the bags because they were too tired.

Then when we keep climbing till the 40th level, (around 40 years of age), we grumble and argue with one another because we are tired with these burdens. Then as we climbed till we are 60 years old, we realized that to blame and argue with each other is of no use and so we made our peace and struggled till the 80th level. It's only then that we realized that the key to our lives, our dreams and goals, we left them back then when we were twenty but there's no going back now.

Friday, August 8, 2008

Where we need the most BRAINS!

"Where we need the most brains"
"Is R n D really where we should be focusing our best and brightest stars?"

Amazing! I read this title with absolute distaste! It's from weekend today.

'Is R n D really where we should be focusing our best and brightest stars?' How could someone come up with this kind of statement? Are you saying that the best and brightest of stars can just channel their talents, brains into any kind of area and excel in it? Are you saying that Einstein could be as good a writer as Shakespeare had he channeled all his time and resources into writing or vice versa? Are you saying that Newton could be as good an artist as Picasso if he chose to? Unbelievable! It seems like the author naively thinks that people can be classify into 2 kinds, the brains and the brainless... On top of the structure are the brains and talents.... The bottom of the pyramid, are of course the brainless, or the not so talented whatever you call it...

In my opinion, I believe everyone is talented, but in different areas of course. Just as all things have a resonant frequency like each individual musical note for instance, everyone too has their each and individual talent in different areas. Einstien once said, "If you judge a fish by its ability to climb, it will forever think itself stupid." Sad to say, I think some educators in our present education system do indeed judge the students solely in the academic aspect. Perhaps we might have lots of Picassos in our country, but because they were labelled by their teachers and peers as stupid and worthless, and that drawing is utterly useless and a waste of time, our potential Picassos just faded away and lived a life of mediocricity. How sad!

As educators, their job is to develop the belief of the students in their natural talent and guide them along their destined path. "Go with the flow", as what the taoist philosophy says, do what you were meant to do.

It seems like the author does echo most of the Singaporeans belief though, that the brains are the ones who excelled in their studies getting straight As and such and that of course, they are so much more superior than us, the ordinary ones and if we were to go to war, they should be more protected than us, after all, they are more talented and useful, isn't it so? Which sort of reminds me of animal farm but to dwell into that is perhaps going too far. And that if you dangle the right carrots in front of these 'brains', then we could properly channel these bright resources into where we need them to be. It seems like we do not regard these brains as proper human beings too but rather cows for us to milk their talent. They would also have certain preferences over others too, you can't force someone to love someone and similarly, you can't force them to do something they do not like. But somehow or rather, we believe that we could buy their souls if we give them enough money. Sure, maybe we could, but then they would be souless creatures then and what good can a souless but brainful creature do?

Thursday, August 7, 2008

This thought has been bothering me for centuries, ok, not centuries, decades I guessed. Why are we made, constructed, invented, created whatever the word to kill one another to survive? I mean why do we have to eat? To feed on the flesh of other living things or even plants for that matter? Why to survive, we have to consume another? It just seems such a cruel way to construct the world. To kill another to ensure one's survival. It's sort of like the system our society works too. A pyramid structure. Democracy? Equal rights? I don't know about that, I know nothing about politics. What I do know is that the rich and powerful are always at the top of the food chain, the power chain, the pyramid, and it is build on layers and layers of foundation with the poor and labourers right at the bottom. So we are like the labour ants slogging our lives away to feed money to those right at the top of the pyramid. How unfair?! Or is it our own fault that we are at the bottom of the pyramid. Is it because we have no financial intelligence? I don't know...


1. I never lie because I don't fear anyone. You only lie when you're afraid.

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I like this quote. I think quotes are real pieces of art. They say so little yet say so much. I must come up with some real nice quotes some day. I think I did come up with quotes in the past, which I quite like.

1. Adults are always asking little kids what they want to be when they grow up because they're looking for ideas
Haha, this is funny... how true is it?
"Write so that your paper is long enough to cover everything but short enough to pique someone's interest, just like a miniskirt."

"Make your paper interesting enough that you would want to take it into the bathroom with you."

Erin Gruwell



Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Adverse effects of rewards

A long long time ago,
in the southern part of China,
there lived an old old man,
who loved peace and quiet very much.

On one particular fine day,
a group of noisy children came along,
as did what children do best,
and that is to make as much noise as possible.

The old man was very fustrated,
he had to think of a way to make the noise go away.
So he thought and thought,
and finally he had an idea!

He called the children to come near him,
and gave each one of them a dollar,
he thanked them for making so much noise,
so that he no longer feels lonliness anymore.

The children were delighted with the reward,
they didn't know that making noise would earn them money.
The next day they came and made noise,
the old man told them that he hadn't much money,
so he would have to pay them 50 cents less.

The children were sad,
but they said it's ok,
they would still return to make noise the next day.

The next day came and went,
the old man only gave them 25 cents,
they were very sad,
but still they said it was ok.

The following day the old man told them he didn't have any money to give them anymore,
the children were horrified.
"No money and you expect us to make so much noise!?"
And from that day on,
peace and serenity was restored......

Sometimes we reward our children for getting good grades,
like getting them a playstation if they got an A,
then they would only be studying because they want the playstation, the reward, it's their goal, to get the reward. This would take away the joy of studying. When you don't have a reward for them the next time, they wouldn't want to study anymore. "Why study when there's no reward, it would be a waste of my time?" just like the children in the story who wouldn't want to 'work' for free. They view studying as work, and the reward as their pay. So studying is no longer play. That's why I do not believe in the reward philosophy of education. It could be used as a bait, a method of inducing the child to get interested in study first, and then to let the child enjoy the process of study.....

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Chinese philospophy

I think the chinese literature Professor Yu dan is quite amazing in her prowess as a lecturer, a teacher, her delivery of ideas is excellent, simple, clear and interesting, something we can all relate to. An excellent teacher.

She got me kind of interested in chinese philosophy. But what's troubling me is that why do the sages write in such undecipherable manners, as in why do they speak and write in such a profound way that it makes it so hard for those who have little grasp of the language to understand. Because it is so profound, any translations would have already altered the meaning unconsciously... I can understand from a teacher's standpoint of view that one has to speak with ambiguity to guide the student to find out the way on his own.. I guess that's the reason and hence everyone has their own take on it..


When you look at yourself from a universal standpoint, something inside always tells us that there are much bigger and more important things to worry about.


Monday, August 4, 2008

9 things I hate abt every1

It's better to keep your mouth shut and give the impression that you're stupid than to open it and remove all doubt. - Rami Belson

9 Things I Hate About Everyone

1. People who point at their wrist asking for the time... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their a** to search the entire room for the TV remote because they refuse to walk to the TV and change the channel manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn Right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they?

5. When people say while watching a film, "did ya see that?" No Loser, I paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor!

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?"... Didn't give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.

8. When people say "life is short". What the hell??? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!!! What can you do thats longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?" If the bus came, would I be standing here??? - Unknown

Remember the fame

One of my favourite philosophers Zhuang Zi once said,
to get past fame, is much more difficult than to get past material riches...
What I mean by getting pass is to disregard, or to really know and understand that riches and fame don't really matter.... It's kinda hard to translate chinese to english with my limited language skills.

Now I think that is really true, in troy, Archilles hungers for fame and glory, he cares not for riches... he knew he would die, but for his name, he would rather give his life... Is it worth it? I know not, he now has his legacy, you could say he lives on forever... but what good has he done? Other than the fact that we know he's the best warrior. I hope he doesn't haunt me for my words...

Those hankering after the nobel awards, I believe they've already gotten past the material riches, but they're still going for immortality...

So many of us are aspiring to be popstars are sucessful in our careers or even to have a beautiful model-like girlfriend as a trophy, that is just in pursuit of a fame and a name.

Perhaps it's of no coincidence,
that fame rhymes with name....


Music is deep,
it is really really deep.
To those who don't understand it,
it is just mere music.
First there is the melody,
then there is the rhythm,
then there is the state of mind,
that is to feel as one with the composer,
but you have to have similar experiences,
to understand and play as the composer would have you,
if you have a lack of experience,
then perhaps one can try to impose one's feel on it,
to change the feel as one feels,
and in turn change the rhythm as one feels,
and in turn change the melody as one feels,
to make the music a part of the composer and you.

Mother Teresa and the starfish

Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired. Mother Teresa

I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love. Mother Teresa

I think she really is amazing, I mean talk all we want but to be able to give it all for others, who really can do it?

I want you to be concerned about your next door neighbor. Do you know your next door neighbor? Mother Teresa

I think we should start with our own kins first, how many times have we taken them for granted? How many of us treat our friends with more patience than our kins?

If we want a love message to be heard, it has got to be sent out. To keep a lamp burning, we have to keep putting oil in it. Mother Teresa

This quote to me has special significance to couples who have been together for a long time and feel the flame of love burning out but are just together because they forgotten how to be alone and are fearful of lonliness.

If you can't feed a hundred people, then feed just one. Mother Teresa

Reminds me of the starfish story..... The very famous one... where one of my friends used in his speeches...

There was a little boy, who was on the beach. He was seen from afar, to be throwing the many starfish that were washed ashore by the waves back into the sea... Over and over again, he did the same thing... An old man sighed at his foolishness..

"Little one, how many can you save? There are millions of them out here, what difference does it make?"

"It might not make a difference to us, but to each of them I saved, it makes a hell lot of difference for them." And with that, he carried on saving the starfish (Is there a plural?)...


When asked what it takes for a country to prosper,
Confuscious said,
3 simple things.
First, soldiers,
Second, food.
Third - Belief/faith. (not too sure which word)

Ok, makes sense.

Then one of his disciples asked,
"Teacher teacher, if die die we have to take away one, which should be done away with?"

Confuscious replied,
"Let it be soldiers then."

The disciple hell bent on testing his teacher's wisdom continued asking,
"TEacher teacher, if die die die we have to take away one more, which should be done away with?"

Confuscious replied calmly,
"Let it be food then."

One could do without security, without food, but one could never survive without belief.

"Sometimes a person needs a story more than food to stay alive."

"Much more people in this world are dying for a shred of love, than a crumb of bread" (Sorry, my english sucks, I don't know the exact quote from mother teresa)

The Enfant terrible!

And so the moral of the Yu Dan story is that one really has to watch one's mouth,
to think before you speak,
to listen more,
for the hurt caused by your tongue,
could never ever be erased.
The tongue could be the most beautiful thing in this world,
painting the most beautiful of pictures and the most pleasing of thoughts,
but the tongue could also be the ugliest thing in this world,
leaving a turmoil of destruction behind its rage, ( I was interrupted for quite some time here cos my com fell asleep)
so tame this tongue of ours,
and think before one speaks... (I have no idea where I stopped so I just end it off)

Need for wisdom

Anyway, with reference to the story of the three little pigs, the story in chicken soup goes like this. There was this teacher, who forced every single one of his students to memorise famous quotations (pearls of wisdoms as they called it) every day, Mark his most notorious students didn't see what use these pearls have. A decade after he left school, he ran into some trouble, and felt he would be better off dying, so he slit his wrist, and waited for death, but all of a sudden, a pearl of wisdom flashed across his mind, "You have truly failed, only if you give up trying." He didn't want to fail, he hasn't failed yet, he summoned his last ounce of strength and called for help. To this day I don't know if he is 'successful', but he has already succeeded, for he didn't give up trying. And so knowledge, wisdom is definitely a good thing to have, for you never know when you might have a need for them.

Why I write

Ok, I apologise for being so disorganised if you are reading this blog, that's what I am, inconsiderate and disorganised, but it really takes too much effort to get organised, and really I'm merely writing becaue I can't fall asleep. not really, I write because I have something to say too.

I write because writing helps me get organized,
I write so as to understand myself better,
I write so as to see a larger world out there,
I write so as to split myself up in to different characters,
I write so as to put myself in other's shoes,
I write simply because it's fun,
I write simply because I've nothing better to do

Yu Dan

A long long time ago,
there was this naughty little boy,
who has a very nasty temper,
every single day,
he would vent his anger on his family.
One day his father spoke to him,
"Every single time you vent your anger
hammer a nail into the kitchen wall."
The boy said fine,
I like hammering things anyway.
So every single time he exploded,
he would nail a nail into the wall.
Then one day he realized
that there was no place left on the wall to nail,
he thought to himself,
I couldn't carry on like this,
it isn't right to do this,
and so his father told him,
if you can control your temper for a day,
you can take down a nail.
And so the boy tried terribly hard,
and managed to keep his temper in check,
and because it was so hard just to get a nail down,
he never lost his temper again,
he managed to get all the nails down one day,
and happily he went to his father,
"Father look all the nails are down."
His father turned to look at the wall,
"Look at every single one of the holes,
they are the damage inflicted by the wrath of your anger,
the hurt you caused to everyone in this family,
the nails might be gone,
but the damage has been done."

Moral of the 3 little pigs

Ok, what the story was trying to say was that the pebbles were beads of knowledge, and that when we were young like the three little pigs, we were asked by our teachers to picked up these pebbles of knowledge, but we see no use of these pebbles, so we only picked one up, and when we grow up to be fine young men, we then realised how folly we have been, had we picked up more of these diamonds to be, we would have been rich with knowledge!

I can feel for this story, or fable, or whatever you call this kind of short story, for I truly can feel for it....

The correct version of my 3 little pigs

Hmm.... Ok, my last post, the one on the three little pig, haha, I got it a bit wrong.... I got it from chicken soup... and translated to my own version....

A long long time ago,
there lived three little pigs,
one was called grumpy,
the other was bumpy,
and the youngest was frumpy,
on a dark dark night,
they met this heavenly angel,
who told them to pick up pebbles
as many as they possibly could,
grumpy wasn't happy,
what use could pebbles have,
bumpy wasn't happy,
pebbles couldn't be eaten,
frumpy wasn't happy,
pebbles were so heavey!
but still they picked up a pebble,
for they didn't want to disobey the angel.
The angel before leaving,
turned and told them this,
"Tomorrow the day would be glad,
but the three little pigs would be sad."
Puzzled by the words of the angel,
the three little pigs fell into a deep sleep.
Awoken by the rays of the sun the next day,
the three little pigs went about doing their work,
when the sun went down and the moon came up,
they discovered to their utmost delight,
that the pouch containing the pebble,
was glowing as bright as a star,
they opened up the pouches,
to find in each of them,
a bright sparkling diamond,
and not a single trace of the pebble.
A cloud of sadness fell across their faces,
for they now realised,
how folly they had been,
had they picked up more pebbles,
how much more diamonds they would have gotten!

The 3 little pigs

A very long long time ago,
there lived three little pigs,
who met a heavenly angel.
The heavenly angel told the three little pigs,
to collect one pebble each,
and she told them in these words,
"You'll be sad to look at them tomorrow."
The pigs were puzzled by her words,
and though reluctant they were
to collect the useless pebbles,
still they obeyed the angel's words,
for they are good dear little pigs,
The next day came and went,
they opened their pouches at night,
only to find that the useless pebbles have disappeared,
and in its place was a shiny diamond.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Our Greatest Fear

Our Greatest Fear —Marianne Williamson

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.

There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other

people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of
God that is within us.

It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.

And as we let our own light shine,
we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

—Marianne Williamson

Wednesday, July 30, 2008


The reason why I'm writing all these posts now is because of one major reason, I can't fall asleep. Yes I'm tired, but I drank too many coffee these days, because I've nothing better to do, and I don't like to drink plain water, which doesn't mean I don't like plain girls, in fact maybe plain girls are my cup of tea, I'm not one for surprises, all I want is stability and peace, all I want is someone to be there for me, all I want is a nice fragrant body to smell when things around you get stinky, all I want is a sweet voice to immerse in, when all around you is just pure white noise!

Question, why is white noise called white noise and not dark noise?
Why is dark horse called dark horse and not bright horse?

I am so damn inqusitive but as we always say, there are no silly questions even though we don't think that way...

See, what hypocrites we all are....


Oh, and in the movie, "take the lead", there's this cool guy that likes a fat girl, but because everyone thinks fat is bad,
he doesn't dare to like,
which is so damn bad,
and I'm so damn sad,
and I told my dad,
and he got so darn mad...

Haha, maybe I could make it as a rapper... nah... my thounge is thoo thhick...

In the teenage text book, there's this act cool guy Sean who speaks his s as th... so sissy song sounds like thithy thong.... Haha, do try saying out loud...

Anyway, I was saying, ya, it's so easy to say let's not care what others think, it's what you think that matters but how many of us really are able to do it. I for one can't. I'm a vainpot. Saying and doing are really 2 different things man!

We know, but we do not.
It snows, but it's still hot,
We see, but we hear not,
We touch, but we feel not,
I deny, but I'm a vainpot!

Frequency of resonance

"To follow takes as much strength as to lead."

This was a quote taken from the movie, "take the lead." Now seriously, I don't really know what it means, but somehow, it just makes sense ya know? haha, this movie's about ballroom dancing by the way...

Anyway, the readership of this blog is pathethic, it's just 5 on average per day, duh... shows my popularity huh... But, I've never ever been popular anyway, Hmm... actually maybe I was quite popular with the ladies when I was a kid, but the older I get, the more detestable I got... I wonder why...

And recently, I've been watching the chinese lecture series, Yu Dan talking about the ideals of a very prominent chinese philosopher, "Zhuang Zi".

"Sometimes I wonder whether I'm a man dreaming I'm a butterfly or I'm a butterfly dreaming I'm a man." That was the very famous quote from Zhuang Zi. He's really amazing, his insights are incredible, I seriously am in awe of him.

He talks about the way of life, that the way of life is not something you can think of, for once you think of it, you'll not know what it is. It's like drinking water, once you think of how actually to drink the water, you'll choke or soemthing like that.. Hmm.. kinda of a bad analogy... But ya, somethings just can't be thought of, they are rather instinctive, it's in you, in your heart, so it's not to be thought of...

One of my very own favorite analogies is the resonant frequency one. In this world, every single thing has a resonant frequency, that is the frequency that makes the object tick. Every note sounds that particular way because that is its resonant frequency. Moisten your fingers and twirl it around the edges of a wineglass and you'll hear the glass singing in tune with its natural resonant frequency. So yes, when you are doing the thing you love, that is your natural resonant frequency. You'll forget about yourself, you know, like in sports we have the term "in the zone". It's like you are so focused, so concentrated on that present moment that you take no notice of all the unimportant things aroud you except the thing you are doing, and after that, when you try to recall, you have no idea why you did it or how you did it, you just know you did it and the feeling was so terribly incredible man!

Tuesday, July 29, 2008


Dear Elaine,

I've something to confessed, something I should have done years ago but didn't have the courage to do it till now.

I'm terribly sorry, terribly sorry for all the things I've did, all the words I've said. I never once meant those hurtful words, that suddenly took on a life of their own and just propel right out of my mouth. That's not to say I'm not to blame, I should really have more control over my emotions so as to save my loved ones from hurtful words hurled in the wrath of anger. I hope down deep in the bottom of your heart, you know that I never meant a single one of the words I spoke. You and I were just not meant to be. Yes, I believe in fate and destiny, we should always flow with destiny and not fight hard against it. It's just like a powerful current in the river of life, no matter how strong you are, it's impossible to swim against the current. We have to know our own limits, we have to go with the flow of life and the flow of life apparently orients me to be more homosexually inclined ...

Yours always,

I always had a fetish for reading letters, and the above letter was just a pure figment of my imagination, although I have to say, I'm terribly uncreative, the only twist I could think of was the sexual orientation. I didn't start off knowing what I wanted to write, it's like constructing a story line by line, after one life, then we see what's goes next, sort of like the games we played in orientation camps, where somebody starts off with one line, and the next one make up another one etc..... I digress.

Anyway, letters have such a personal touch, it seems like you're looking through the eyes of the person reading the letter and feeling with him/her at the same time, that is so cool... (Shit, I sound like a teenager myself, with the so cool, so lame slang..., it's high time I grow up.)

The teenage textbook!

I suddenly realise I'm such a narcissist! Why I am single, I've posted this title before, and in just 2 sentences, I've already used 5 'I's already! Everything is about me!

I've just finished an absolutely hilarious book, haha, the teenage textbook. It's written by a local singaporean author, yes, go local people! I've never laughed for so long while reading a book, note, not comic, but book with words words and mostly words! The last time I laughed out loud was when I read Neil humphrey's adventure in Singapore whereby he raised his hands in a primary school and his finger was sliced by the ceiling fan whirling like a hurricane above him. I'm not a good teller of joke and so you'd have to read that article to get a laugh. But ya, back to the teenage textbook, it's humor is slapstick and so lame! Haha, but I like it, it's local, I think we can relate to it better. The D.H Lawrence, the tolstoy, I'm sorry, they're old people, I think we have a generation gap and what's more, we leave in different parts of the world, or earth man.

Here's one of my favorite parts....

One of the characters in the story, Sean was dating this ever so hot girl called Sissy Song on Valentine's day. Sissy Song decided to change her order, so Sean desperate to show that he's the hot shot guy tries to get the attention of the waiter by waving at him. The waiter saw Sean's wave and in return, smiled and waved back politely at Sean wondering who the heck this friendly guy is.

So you see, it's a damn lame book, haha, but then, I just like it. Perhaps it's because we, I mean the book and I have something in common....

Monday, July 28, 2008

Why I am single

As you can see, I'm a very moody, seasonal person for when I do write, I just keep on writing, and when I don't, I will starve myself of writing for days, weeks and months. This, is no good, it gives people a sense of insecurity, and that is the reason, why I am single. Actually, it is only one of the many many thousand reasons or factors why I am single.

Anyway, I read this on the net and found it quite true. Haha, singaporeans are very economical and efficient in their use of language, it just shows how much time is valued here over in singapore, or how expensive our every drop of saliva is.

When you doubt someone,
Britons: I don't recall you giving me the money.
Singaporeans: Where got?

When entertaining,
Britons: Please make yourself at home.
Singaporeans: Don't shy leh!

When deciding on the next move,
Britons: So what do you propose we do now that the present plan has failed?
Singaporeans: Then how?!

When someone offers to pay,
Britons: Please kindly put your wallet away, it's on me!
Singaporeans: No need.

When courting women,
Britons: How about you and me get together?
Singaporeans: Ai gia steady mai?

Pyscho TEST!

Women love doing those pyschological questionaire to find out more about themselves, I wonder why! Of course that is a sweeping statement, I mean most ok, and in my opinion, as my young cousin always like to add... "In my opinion... this.... In my opinion... that...." Haha, man, how irritating!

Anyway, I wonder if it would be fun to set up a questionaire of my own, of course, then the 'women' would now doubt the credibility of this test then, because the setter is no pyschologist with a certificate, but I am still a pyschologist for I study human behavior, now now, who doesn't study human behavior? (Even animals study human behavior man!)

Question 1: If you were to find yourself alone, isolated on an island with lots of trees, what would you do?
a) Lay down on the sand and enjoy the sun
b) Lay down on the sand and dream about your favorite dream
c) Run around the island naked enjoying your new found freedom

Question 2: If you had to choose between 3 kind of men, which would you choose?
a) Sunshine boy, tall, dark and handsome
b) The artistic kind, fluid in language and eloquent in speech and mannerism
c) The passionate, beastly kind where instincts rule over logic

Question 3: If you were to meet batman, what would you say to him?
a) Oh gosh, how handsome you are!
b) Thou would like to be thy catwoman.
c) Let your body do the talking.

If most of your answers are A, you are perfectly normal, always conforming to peer and social pressure.
If most of your answers are B, you are my kind, and most likely you are a pieces, however you spell it, you know, the double fish one.
If most of your answers are C, you are one hell of a sexy lady but maybe too wild for me.
If you never try answering, then you are a very logical woman and must be my good friend to have the patience to finish this post, thank you very much.

I don't know how to name this post

You wouldn't believe what I've gone through to write this post. My keyboard is like a little child throwing tantrums at me, I ask it to spell a p and it refuses, I ask it to please write a 0, a 6 for me and it plays dumb! (this doesn't necessarily mean that my password has a 0 or a 6 mind you.) What the hell! And so I had to open my calendar, you know, the pc calendar where it stores all the digit so that I could copy and paste the missing numbers into you know, what it is required before I could post a post! What trouble! And when all is done, miraculously, this child of mine suddenly gets all obedient and obliges to my every single command, MIRACULOUS! I really don't understand children, and keyboard, except that what you want them to do, they don't do and what you don't want them to do, they do. Amazing creatures!

Ok, I think I better post this post before my lap top hiberates! It is getting lazier and lazier, it dozes off like every half an hour! Amazing! As of present, I only have 16 minutes left, but I think as a matter of fact, I only have 6 minutes because time is as Einstein would have it, relative, so 16 minutes to my laptop is like 6 minutes to me! Hey laptop, get back to the real world where real time is running and stop skivving off your work ok! And darn, my english is so bad I don't even know how to spell skivving much less pronounce it.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Ok, it's over, my love affair with physics, with the grand unified theory, the so called theory of everything is over. That's what I always do, I'm unfaithful, fickle-minded as some people say. When I was a kid, I loved mathematics, not really, I just like having puzzles to solve. When I was older, I then fell in love with philosophy, who at this present moment looks like a boring old man to me now, not that all old man are boring. Then, it was literature or so I thought, but the classics also bore the hell outta me, I mean seriously, who can understand shakespeare with his thou, art, thy hell? Why can't he just speak normal? Of course, I'm an ignorant fool but what the heck, I just want something easier to read, you know, just reading for the pleasure of reading. Oh, and I hate descriptive parts in novel, especially right at the start of the book! Come on, just get on with the story, I believe our imaginations would do that part, you know, giving faces to the characters. Is it the curse of the modern era that we want action right from the start till end? I'm never one for the beauty of words anyway, so just tell me a story short, sweet and simple. That's hopefully what I would do when I write a story.

The little prince came upon this planet and he saw a drunkard on it. On his table were many many empty beer bottles and many many filled ones as well. His face was flushed and he simply couldn't stop drinking.

"Why are you drinking?"

"To forget."

"Forget what?"

"Forget that I'm ashamed."

"Ashamed of what?"

"Ashamed of drinking!"

And with that, he carried on drinking...

How very weird grown-ups are, thought the little prince, I hope I never grow up to be like them.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

I haven't been writing for a long long time, been very lazy of late, also have no idea what to write about, actually had a lot of fleeting thoughts, but these thoughts are fleeting thoughts, once you don't write them down, they'll fly off to the ends of the universe and because the universe is sort of a loop, the thoughts will ultimately come back to you just like the loop buses you sit, all it takes is just time.

Recently, I've been reading on this theory that the whole present world as we perceive it is actually a hologram, a hologram is a 2d image that looks 3d due to the inteference of light waves that gives it the 3d effect. It's like the first scene you see in the first stars wars episode where princess leia calls for help....

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Another silly theory

And I guess why the planets move in ellipses is also because of distorted spacetime. I seriously don't understand what spacetime is but because it sounds so cool, I have since subsituted space with space time, haha.

An ellipse is simply a circle when viewed from an inclined angle. When you were a child, you often draw ellipses because of our imperfection in drawing a perfect circle. Therefore, when spacetime is distorted, the planets are actually orbiting in circles but because of their gigantic masses thus distorting spacetime causing the 2D space time to sink in or get warped up, the perfect circle they are orbiting in is perceived as an ellipse from our point of view.

Another question that has been bugging me, why do mass attract mass??? Conservation of energy kind of makes sense, it's like there's no beginning there's no end etc kind of logic, but gravity... ????

Saturday, July 12, 2008

Random questions

When objects move near the speed of light, their mass gets smaller. Perhaps maybe it is the spacetime that gets distorted. If we view our world spacetime as a 2d flat world, then when an object moves extremely fast near the speed of light, this space time gets distorted, warped up and sort of like crumples up, and therefore, when we view it from a 2d plane, it looks smaller. haha, just a thought.

And I was wondering, yes I always wonder, perhaps I have nothing better to do, I was wondering why speed of light is the speed limit of all things in the world???

I was also wondering, they say when you travel as fast as the speed of light, then you will never age, and when you travel faster than the speed of light, you could go back into the past or into the future. Ok, so let's say I travel faster than the speed of light, but which direction will lead me to the past and which to the future???? Where is the direction of time???

Richard Feynmann was quite against a unifying theory for he believes that scientists shouldn't jump to the conclusion that there is such a unifying theory. He says we shouldn't near nature what to do... He believes that there might be the possibility that there might not be a unifying theory after all. And he thinks the nobel and honours don't really matter, what really matters is you have fun and enjoy the pleasure of finding things out. That I really do believe too.

Saturday, July 5, 2008

God plays dice

The great man Einstein once said, "God doesn't play dice."

I must say, I have to disagree with him. Imagine you are the creator of a game, you wouldn't have enough time to create all the characters in the game would you? And so, you write some algorithm whereby the attributes of the characters created are to be random, maybe something like the schrowinger's equation. And I guess pretty much that is how our 'creator' thought too.

So i guess maybe the grand unifying theory simply stops here. For if there really is a grand unifying theory other than this, like a formula like A= CG^11, than there wouldn't be any randomness in life and everyone would turn out to be the same and that would make the game very boring.

Monday, June 30, 2008

I was wondering, is it because light is massless and thus it has a dual nature. Electrons are almost massless as well and thus behave in a similar fashion?

And this is just a wild thought, but maybe the sun is just a big hole whereby light/energy from another world, from heaven? or from another dimension is shining through to our dimension, our world. And the 'heaven' has unlimited amount of energy.... just a wild thought with no scientfic backing.....

Massless objects, those with pure energy will move at the speed of light. Those with mass will definitely be slower, and thus the speed of light is the limit of speed. Therefore, I think that it is simply a law of proportion, whereby the speed limit of an object is determine by its mass.
Suppose you're on a game show, and you're given the choice of three doors: Behind one door is a car; behind the others, goats. You pick a door, say No. 1, and the host, who knows what's behind the doors, opens another door, say No. 3, which has a goat. He then says to you, "Do you want to pick door No. 2?" Is it to your advantage to switch your choice?

Please think carefully before you look at the solution.


Tree showing the probability of every possible outcome if the player initially picks Door 1

Our intuition will tell us that there is no difference whether we choose to switch or not to switch. And this shows us that sometimes our intuition can be wrong, so people, always, always leave room for doubt

Saturday, June 28, 2008

The goal was scored a little bit by the hand of God, another bit by the head of Maradona.
Argentinian soccer player, on goal against England in 1986 World Cup.

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Relativity and Frequency and Wavelength

Applying Einstein's theory of relativity, if we observe light in a moving train and outside a moving train when the light source is in the moving train....

As proven by Einstein and co... time is different for different reference frame... frequency is simply the number of complete vibration per second or rather, per time period...

And now, since time is different for different refernce frames, will the frequency be different from different reference frame?????????

Space Time

What actually is time? What actually is space? What is the product of space and time?

Friday, June 20, 2008


"If my theory of relativity is proven correct, Germany will claim me as a German and France will declare that I am a citizen of the world. Should my theory prove untrue, France will say that I am a German and Germany will declare that I am a Jew."

Albert Einstein, 1929

Friend's Friend's Dad has leukemia, urgently needs AB+ blood, pls call Caili (97838531), (Singapore)

Thursday, June 19, 2008

just a thought

Today a thought crossed my mind.

You know, we're always so sscared that the machines, the computers would have a mind of their own and rebel against us, their creators.

So i was thinking, perhaps we might be the computers and god or gods might be us..... And that we are serving some purposes or functions to them.... just a thought .. just a thought...

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Quotes and Movies

God created man because he loves stories.

Elie Wiesel

The optimist sees he doughnut, the pessimist the hole.

McLandburgh Wilson

This quote is just damn funny lor.

Oh ya, and I think there are some movies that we die die have to watch.
  • Dead Poet's Society
  • Remember the titans
  • Finding neverland
  • Little miss sunshine
  • Shawshank Redemption
This is all I can remember for now...

On the Suffering of the World

If the immediate and direct purpose of our life is not suffering then our existence is the most ill-adapted to its purpose in the world: for it is absurd to suppose that the endless affliction of which the world is everywhere full, and which arises out of the need and distress pertaining essentially to life, shoud be purposeless and purely accidental. Each individual misfortune, to be sure, seems an exceptional occurerence; but misfortune in general is the rule.

The above is an excerpt from Arthur Schopenhauer. I find some of his writings quite interesting, but sometimes, I think all philosphers are too long-winded. Perhaps I didn't catch the essense of some parts hence I find them superflous. For instance, the above merely says that the author thinks that suffering is the purpose of our life in this world.

And this belief stems from the author's assumption that there has to be a purpose behind everything and hence since this world is full of suffering, it must be then the purpose in our life.

But then the argument will lead to nowhere if we question this assumption on why there must be a purpose behind everything? The kung fu panda said "There are no accidents!" But what if this world is an accident! Just like some kids are accidents, haha, ok, not funny, I get it, I am very lame. And hence, this is where faith comes in, there has to be a start somewhere and this start is always the faith to believe in one's assumptions, religions or beliefs.... hence the endless conflicts for no amount of logic could dislodge this faith because we are given a lack of information to find answer to the mystery of life.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Excellent talk, one of my all time fav, so hilarious!

Saturday, June 14, 2008


An interesting talk on the string theory. But sometimes I wonder, so what if we find the theory of everything, if one really exists... Einstein believed in a theory of everything... And I guess you could call that the absolute truth, the absolute law... And it's interesting too that how much of the world is govern by maths... Though I hate tedious maths working... And my maths is terribly poor...

But I was wondering, don't the scientists fear that one day there is nothing left to be discovered anymore? Where would they find the joy and motivation in life then?

And interestingly, yesterday 2 christians knocked on my door and I learn an interesting point of view from her which I've never thought of. I was saying if god is omnipotent, which he should be, and which the christians believe to be as well, then it means that when he created Adam he already knew that he would sin and the destruction of all the people except Noah etc... To which she said, well, god is indeed omnipotent, but he chooses not to use his power to see in the future because he gave us free will. Now I thought this was rather interesting.

But then I was reminded of the disasters, the Tsunamis, the earthquakes, all the sufferings and if god chooses not to use his power to prevent these disasters and sufferings ... ...

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Whenever I'm sad and depressed,
I'd always think to myself,
that there is always someone out there,
who is sadder than I now am,
and that makes me feel much better,
and my day much brighter.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008


Why is the space black? Because the sun is radiating light out, then why is the space dark??? When something is black as we see it, it means no light is reflected to our eyes. And that means all the light is being absorbed by the space. And if all the light is being absorbed by space, how could light travel to earth? And what's more, isn't space just vacuum, and how can a vacuum absorb light???

Why are clouds white? Because of the presence of water vapour. But how? It has something to do with wavelenghth but I'm not sure of the exact explanation.

What is a polarizor made of and how actually does it work?

Why why why ???

QED showed that reflection never involves photons bouncing off mirrors. Instead, the photons are absorbed by electrons of atoms in the glass and, an instant later, these electrons emit new photons. In that instant, the electrons have moved around the atom a little, and so the new photons are emitted in a new direction.

Hai..... (sigh), so confusing! So these light photons are absorbed by the electrons, and therefore when energy is absorbed, the electrons gain energy and therefore they will move to the outer shells of the atom. But, why at an instant later, these electrons will emit new photons????? And I can't visualise the last statement, and how can I link it to the law that incident angle = reflected angle???

Oh, and is there an answer to why the law of reflection states that reflected angle must = incident angle? And is there an answer to why mass attracts mass?
Henri Nouwen:

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives means the most us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving much advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a gentle and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.

Why sun rays appear yellow

Today I've made a great discovery! Great in my context but of course infinitely small in your context, I think I know why sunlight appears to be yellow, or sun rays appear to be yellow especially when there are no clouds and the sky is perfectly blue!

I was giving tuition and while my student was doing the questions, I came across the color triangle, and I happened to see that yellow is just a combination of red and green with absolutely, I repeat, absolutely no blue inside! And light dawned on me, yes, pure white light dawned on me! The mystery of the apparent yellow we see I think is because white light, on its way from the sun to the earth, would hit the dust particles in our atmosphere and thus caused most of the blue light to scatter. As for Reyliaugh's formula, I have no idea how he derived it and why is that a larger wavelength would have a much larger probability of being scattered. And since most of the blue light is scattered, what is left behind would be green and red and therefore, the sun rays appear yellow!

Monday, June 9, 2008

The way of the world

One of the most impressive discoveries was the origin of the energy of the stars, that makes them continue to burn. One of the men who discovered this was out with his girl friend the night after he realized that nuclear reactions must be going on in the stars in order to make them shine. She said, 'Look at how pretty the stars shine!' He said, 'Yes, and right now I am the only man in the world who knows why they shine.' She merely laughed at him. She was not impressed with being out with the only man who, at that moment, knew why the stars shine. Well it is sad to be alone, but that is the way of the world.

Richard Feynman

Haha, I just love this, love his words..... perhaps I feel for him, but of course, who am i to compare myself with the great Richard Feynman. And this reminds me of a piece in the little prince.

Chapter 13

The fourth planet belonged to a businessman. This man was so much occupied that he did not even raise his head at the little prince's arrival.

"Good morning," the little prince said to him. "Your cigarette has gone out."

"Three and two make five. Five and seven make twelve. Twelve and three make fifteen. Good morning. FIfteen and seven make twenty-two. Twenty-two and six make twenty-eight. I haven't time to light it again. Twenty-six and five make thirty-one. Phew! Then that makes five-hundred-and-one million, six-hundred-twenty-two-thousand, seven-hundred-thirty-one."

"Five hundred million what?" asked the little prince.

"Eh? Are you still there? Five-hundred-and-one million--I can't stop . . . I have so much to do! I am concerned with matters of consequence. I don't amuse myself with balderdash. Two and five make seven . . ."

"Five-hundred-and-one million what?" repeated the little prince, who never in his life had let go of a question once he had asked it.

The businessman raised his head.

"During the fifty-four years that I have inhabited this planet, I have been disturbed only three times. The first time was twenty-two years ago, when some giddy goose fell from goodness knows where. He made the most frightful noise that resounded all over the place, and I made four mistakes in my addition. The second time, eleven years ago, I was disturbed by an attack of rheumatism. I don't get enough exercise. I have no time for loafing. The third time--well, this is it! I was saying, then, five-hundred-and-one millions--"

"Millions of what?"

The businessman suddenly realized that there was no hope of being left in peace until he answered this question.

"Millions of those little objects," he said, "which one sometimes sees in the sky."


"Oh, no. Little glittering objects."


"Oh, no. Little golden objects that set lazy men to idle dreaming. As for me, I am concerned with matters of consequence. There is no time for idle dreaming in my life."

"Ah! You mean the stars?"

"Yes, that's it. The stars."

"And what do you do with five-hundred millions of stars?"

"Five-hundred-and-one million, six-hundred-twenty-two thousand, seven-hundred-thirty-one. I am concerned with matters of consequence: I am accurate."

"And what do you do with these stars?"

"What do I do with them?"


"Nothing. I own them."

"You own the stars?"


"But I have already seen a king who--"

"Kings do not own, they reign over. It is a very different matter."

"And what good does it do you to own the stars?"

"It does me the good of making me rich."

"And what good does it do you to be rich?"

"It makes it possible for me to buy more stars, if any are discovered."

"This man," the little prince said to himself, "reasons a little like my poor tippler . . ."

Nevertheless, he still had some more questions.

"How is it possible for one to own the stars?"

"To whom do they belong?" the businessman retorted, peevishly.

"I don't know. To nobody."

"Then they belong to me, because I was the first person to think of it."

"Is that all that is necessary?"

"Certainly. When you find a diamond that belongs to nobody, it is yours. When you discover an island that belongs to nobody, it is yours. When you get an idea before any one else, you take out a patent on it: it is yours. So with me: I own the stars, because nobody else before me ever thought of owning them."

"Yes, that is true," said the little prince. "And what do you do with them?"

"I administer them," replied the businessman. "I count them and recount them. It is difficult. But I am a man who is naturally interested in matters of consequence."

The little prince was still not satisfied.

"If I owned a silk scarf," he said, "I could put it around my neck and take it away with me. If I owned a flower, I could pluck that flower and take it away with me. But you cannot pluck the stars from heaven . . ."

"No. But I can put them in the bank."

"Whatever does that mean?"

"That means that I write the number of my stars on a little paper. And then I put this paper in a drawer and lock it with a key."

"And that is all?"

"That is enough," said the businessman.

"It is entertaining," thought the little prince. "It is rather poetic. But it is of no great consequence."

On matters of consequence, the little prince had ideas which were very different from those of the grown-ups.

"I myself own a flower," he continued his conversation with the businessman, "which I water every day. I own three volcanoes, which I clean out every week (for I also clean out the one that is extinct; one never knows). It is of some use to my volcanoes, and it is of some use to my flower, that I own them. But you are of no use to the stars . . ."

The businessman opened his mouth, but he found nothing to say in answer. And the little prince went away.

"The grown-ups are certainly altogether extraordinary," he said simply, talking to himself as he continued on his journey.